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Monday, July 07, 2008

wow,
been forever since i last posted shit here.
lives been great.
i miss ally my baby badly.
and my hormones are going wild. but oh well.
i still get bruises.
i still drink.
i still smoke.
well, 3 months till i finally
get out of that school.

i miss the past, i really do.

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Friday, October 19, 2007

so i decided to take time from my sleep
which i'm left with around 4hrs
to blog about how things have been going.

So far right now,
life's been alright really.
I've had a few ups & downs within the first
week of the holidays but it seems like
things are alright now.

i've finally gotten myself a job
at coffee bean at payar lebar i start work probably end of oct.
so drop on by whenever your free (:

Im going to be working for the megadeth
& heaven&hell concert with syg
which is going to be great fun cause we get to
dress up for halloween. :D
we plan to go as fallen angels from consantine.
syg's going to get the wings tomorrow & dye mine black (:
cant wait.

recently. ive been a little stressed
up with family problems. and my parents
have finally settled on a solution.
as much as this solution sounds fun..
it kindda scares me as i know
the responsibilities i now have to bear would be higer.
i know my time schedule would be as tight as ever
and i would definatly lose contact with many of my friends..

But throughout this difficult time..
syg has always been there for me..
He has seriously been honest with everything..
despite how much the truth hurt.
He has offered to do so many things to help me out.
and i appreciate everything.
I've promised to stop thinking negativly.
i hope i can fufill my promises to him.
I truely love him very much..

I have a feeling the year 2008 would be an
interesting one..
i cant wait for it to come by though (:
it seems like i blog less and less..
this proves something.

i am changing.
might it be for the better or worse
i dont care.
right now. i only care for these people.

1) my mum
2) my adek
3) my mum's side of the family
4) my bf
5) a few of my friends

thats all. i know it sounds selfish.
but. hey. thats life nowadays.
anyway i seriously need to go to bed.
ive got school tmr
& it kindda sucks. nights.

Nikita
xoxoxo

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Thursday, October 11, 2007

Happy birthday to meee :DD
i'm finally sixteen bitchasssz!

I CAN BE A BRAT TODAY
LIKE THOSE BRATS IN SWEET SIXTEEN hahaha
NOT.
:P

NC16 movies here i come (heh big deal -_____-)
thanks to everyone who wished me
or got me presents :D
i really appreciate everything!
hehe *giggles*
u guys have a great raya!

Ps, i still think the 4 spastic boys ahem ahem (willy , kamarul, kamarul nye kawan & danial
get the award for the best birthday wish yet! HAHA :D when will u boy ever stop
being spastic? <3) toodles!

Nikita
xoxoxo

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Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Hey people, right its been
a long time since ive done a proper
post and i decided today would be
the day haha!

Anyway ive got four papers down
and only three more to go.
Hurra! ^____^
The excitement of it all is killing me
in anticipation.
I want this to be over & done
so badly. haha! [:
holidayss *does a lil dance*

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Ive been pretty messed up
the pass few days,
i get irritaited at the slighted things,
i get grumpy real quickly,
i think of negative thoughts.
& yet, despite all of these "signs" of my
period coming soon, it has't.
& it gets more
F.U.S.T.R.A.T.I.N.G
when you hurt someone
unconciously.

*pouts* ):
im sorryyyyyy x10000
to whom ever i've hurt.
I truely am,
i had no rights to vent my anger on
you guys just because im having a tough time.
& ive realised my mistake.
and i promise to change my ways
as quickly as i can. ♥

yup2! anyway today i was insearch of
presents. Yes, many presents to look for.
The one thing i hate about getting presents
for people is buying something really2 nice
for them and ending up keeping it to yourself
cause you realise

"Hey! i just realised this is cool & im gonna keep it.."

tsktsk, nikita2. haha!
i was walking around with maria,
and we decided to pop by toyRus,
saw momok there wif her friend
& we chatted for a while (:
then i had to go home
cause apparently daddy's coming home early
but juding from the looks of it
im home alone yet again huahua. [:

Besok mummy wanna meet to collect
my baju raya. and buy my adek's baju
& kasot. :DD woot.
excited. $_$

hehe okay luh i shall end here,
hopefully i'll blog again after nlevels
im so malas. HAHA.
toodles bby's!!
oh & i miss my boyfiee alot. )):
*muacks2*
take care ♥

Nikita
xoxoxo

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Sunday, September 30, 2007

sialah mood swing meter like this sia:

l---minimum---l---ok---l---moody---l---fustrated---l---MAX---l

mesti control.ape lagi nlevel dah dekat.
syg baby minta maaf okay.
kawan2 i minta maaf okay.
siape2 yang i hurt. i minta maaf okay.

Nikita
xoxoxo

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Saturday, September 29, 2007

i hate friends who lie,
just because their jealous.
what the point of being friends,
if your jealous of whatever
that your jealous of.
I've had it with people like you.
im gonna forget all the friends
i ever had like you and start
a new. fuck you fucking morons.

Nikita
xoxoxo

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Friday, September 28, 2007

i hate it how people
bring you so high up there,
only for you to find out
things you never wished you found out.
somethings just dont change do they?
all im saying is im gonna change seriously.
may it be for the better or worse
it's up to you.
i wouldt be pushed around no more.
i can get new people
and forget you like that,
i dont have to rely on you.
you just think too highly of
yourself sometimes,
realitic check, your not made out
of gold. your flesh & blood
like every fucking one of us.
fuck you shithole.

Nikita
xoxoxo

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